I’m working on OpenStreetMap these days mapping the places wherever I go. Have a look at this town. It was almost unmapped just a week ago (except those two main roads). It’s still nothing near complete, but seems good enough to show off, isn’t it?
Archive for December, 2015
I am afraid of this wretched evening. Sitting in a corner of a whole emptiness is me. Clock ticks its seconds. Evening passes by. “Waqt ke sog mein lamhoN ka juloos, jaise ek kaafila e nauhaagaraaN..” In sorrow of time, this procession of moments, like a caravan of mourners..
Things need not be this bleak always. But evenings are not things. Evenings don’t understand. Perhaps, evenings are like people trying hard to make you happy. Evenings don’t know to leave you alone when you need to be left alone. Evenings are hell in the same way as Sartre said “Hell is other people.” Evenings are not nights.
I woke at 1 a.m. last night. It was the same room, but the emptiness didn’t feel empty. It rather felt serene. Why can’t we have all nights and no evenings? I’ll perhaps need some other evening to find an answer.
Last night, when I was awake, I was actually feeling calm, at peace with myself. If I think of it now, it feels like it was a complete different person. Perhaps, it was me; a me very different from a me I am at evenings. I checked my twitter. I read my book. I hummed my poems: yuuN gumaaN hota hai garche hai abhi subah e firaq, dhal gaya hijr ka din, aa bhi gayi wasl ki raat.. It feels like – even though it’s a morning of separation – the day of staying away has just gone, here comes the night of togetherness.. At night, even separation doesn’t feel like a separation. At least, it didn’t feel like that yesterday.
But it’s not a night yet. It’s an evening, and a wretched one at it. I am sitting in a corner of a whole emptiness. The clock is ticking its seconds. The moments are passing in a procession, like a caravan of mourners.