Archive for August, 2011

So you are at Bankot today!

August 31, 2011

N.B. This is an old mail to Vksuradkar! It was never sent, my outlook went offline before it could be sent.

So you are at Bankot or Hareshwar today! I know these places only by name. I wish I could be with you today, on this Sunday, when I have nothing to keep myself engaged, rather I have the whole world, but just cannot skip out of this hell, to take breath! For now, till I can get out of these four walls, till I am afraid to do it, I must console myself with whatever I can get through a 3 feet x 2 feet window!

Okay, things apart! I have written a post for the blog, but it is big enough that it is creating problems while uploading from home, I must go on net for uploading. I will do it after a while. It is almost a photography post with one-line captions below each post. I hope you will like it. I will give a link on twitter, so keep an eye.

The photos are taken at different places, on different days! The first photo captioned “you grew like a giant” etc, is taken at Laxminagar Hanuman Mandir. The next three photos are taken at Reshimbag NIT gardens. And the next photos from “You made me dream, this road leads to god” are from the Grotto of Mother Lourdes.

I think I should stop writing now. Wait for my post, hope to publish it soon, but I need to go out for that.

Cya 🙂

P.S. This post was later published on this blog named “Because you Love!”

Once I used to be a poet! (Another junk from my Outlook draft folder!)

August 31, 2011

They say once I used to be a poet. I have a diary full of poems I had written in my hostel days. Some of my poems were published in local newspapers, and one of them had gotten a wide critical acclaim. I still occasionally get messages, are you the same Ganesh Dhamodkar, the poet of that ghazal? I hesitantly say, yes, I am the same one, but it was a thing of past; I don’t write anymore! And practically, it was one of the very last poems of mine. My short poetic career ended just in less than a couple of years.

Why did I stop writing, in particular writing poems?

31 August, 2011 23:06

August 31, 2011

It was a much-needed holiday–to replete the energy lost in the past hectic week, and to gather up some energy for the more hectic one to come! Last week of the month, to get as much as possible out of it.

Just watched Balgandharva! Loved to watch it, and mostly the songs in it! Our generation has not seen Gandharva, but he must be looking as he looks in the movie! Loved the movie, and yeah, I must borrow heart, at least for a while, to get those feelings! Idealism should be checked with practicality, isn’t it? But we can’t, and should not, judge people from our standards. We never know what it takes to be in their shoes!

Anyways, I was thinking about getting out for a little walk, but now it’s about 10:20, and I think I should try and get some seven or eight hours sleep!!

N.B. This is an old post I wrote two days ago, was saved in my Outlook drafts, never mind!!

And the poem found: Kandukondain Kandukondain!!! Eureka Eureka!!!

August 28, 2011

Here I am back!! Just a while ago, I posted a translation of Enge enathu kavithai in my last post. It was based on the subtitles of the YouTube video that I had just downloaded. I had said it seemed incomplete, so I further googled for a better translation and found a real gem! Here it comes…:

What I termed as an incomprehensible chorus in my earlier post, that turns out to be a beautiful opening (it’s opening in the film song, but is placed in between two stanzas in the soundtrack version). Chorus goes like:

When the crescent comes out, the heart will jump in joy thinking that the moon has arrived!
By seeing the shadow, my heart will reach its ecstasy thinking that’s you!!

And then comes Chitra, in her eternal voice, Enge enathu kavithai… where is my poetry??

Where is my poetry?
The one that I wrote and folded in my dream…
Did it dilute in the eye?
Did the dawn masquerade it?
Search for my poetry or bring back my dream!!
Where is my poetry?
Where is my poetry?
The one I wrote and folded in my dream!

The mind searches for the lost face in the cervices of evenings and the intricate lanes in itself.
The flower is losing its freshness by ambulating through molten tar-filled city roads in heats.
The mind filters and searches for you even in the gap between two rain drops.
The mind searches for its lost lover with great sorrow…even in broken bubbles!!
If I see your beautiful face just once, I will be contempt with silence!
Touch me with your fingertip…
I will be born a hundred times!!

The mind longs for just one look, or just one touch…
It wants and wishes for that warmth given by your breath while kissing…everyday!!
My mind is yearning for a day when your sweat-filled shirt would embrace me!
The cheek longs for the pleasurable pricking of your ‘stubbled’ face..!

It longs…

I had told my friends that my heart is a rock,
But you have emerged in my heart like a plant that roots itself in the cracks of a rock…!!!

Where is my poetry?

But you have emerged in my heart like a plant that roots itself in the cracks of a rock!!!

Can it be any better…in a film song?? Looking forward for your thoughts!!

Ganesh 🙂

A lost poem

August 28, 2011

And now I cannot wait! It’s just a couple of minutes since I published my last post where I said I am downloading Enge Enathu Kavithai. I just was watching the video, fortunately subtitled! I loved the lyrics of the song, but I had never watched it on screen, and could never get line-to-line meaning, but as I was watching it with subtitles, the lyrics were amazing!!

I have read lyrics of both the songs Enge enathu kavithai and Evano oruvan vasikiran in translation, and though Evano oruvan has superb music (even better than Enge enathu kavithai) and an excellent poetry, the lyrics and poetry of Enge enathu is excellently touching. This song is from a Tamil movie Kandukondain Kandukondain (I have found it, or say Eureka Eureka). Featuring Tabu and Aishwarya, this movie is based on Jane Austen’s Sense and Sensibility.

Let’s move towards our lyrics! Here it is, I am giving it from the movie subtitles:

The song picturizes Aishwarya as a singer who is recording her first song, and starts with some incomprehensible chorus. Subtitles read: After seeing its own shadow, this hearts weeps by seeing you! Then starts Aishwarya singing (in the melodious voice of Chitra). I would stop my commentary now and give the lyrics altogether:

Where is my poem, which was recited in the dream?
Has it got melted by eyes?
Was It erased by dawn?
Search and give me back my poem!
Or else redeem my dream!
My heart is in search of the face which was missed in the evening.
This flower is withering love in the sun.
It’s searching you in the raindrops…
My melting heart is in search of you even in the bursting bubbles!
I will be peaceful if I see your handsome face.
Once if you touch me by your single finger,
I will die hundred times.

My heart is craving for your single glance and word!
I am craving for your kiss that will leave me breathless.
I want to smell you sweating clothes.
It’s wishing for a cheek with a few hairs to prick.

It seems a bit incomplete here, and I have an mp3 version, which goes further a few lines with a proper ending, but as far as the scene goes, and the subtitles, that is it I could have, but overall excellent poetry, and almost surprisingly fresh for film songs!!

I also wished to write about the background of the song in the movie etc, but that you can easily google! Cya 🙂

At this ghostly hour

August 28, 2011

If you must ask me what I am doing at this ghostly hour on my pc (It’s 4:10 a.m. IST), I would say I am just enjoying the freedom of not needing to go office this morning (or rather tomorrow as it’s still “tonight” for me and the feeling of dawn is not here yet).

I wanted to test my YouTube downloader and this is the best time to do so because of free uncongested network. I have downloaded a 7:10 minute record video of unbelievable Danger Dave, and Enge enathu kavithai (as I love the lyrics by Varaimuthu and Sirish has told me about the beautiful picturization of the song with Aishwarya on screen), and I am again going to download another Varaimuthu/Rahman song Evano oruvan vasikiran, again as I love the lyrics.

Just checked my mail to see a comment on my Marathi blog. It was not on the latest post that I wrote last evening (or earlier tonight), but on a previous post.; but the post fetched about 40 visits since it’s published.

I have two options now, to go sleep or to go on a morning walk, after so many days, at 5 o’clock! I would love going on a walk; I guess it’s not raining out! But I’m awake since 3 a.m. and not sure if I can get rest in the day tomorrow. Shall I try to get some sleep?

And next, What else? I’m writing this post for you!!

Sheer randomness!

August 26, 2011

This is my blog. This means that I should write here something. I know, no one reads, but that’s their problem. This is my blog, and I should write on this. May be it is not that important, because I am not a writer. Or I am nothing. I must not write. As I start writing, I go random. This is not good. Better to sleep. What should I read? Oh, we were talking about writing, not reading! I went out of focus, I am sorry!!

By the way, I think I should start writing on Ghalibana again, I haven’t written there anything for a long time. Let’s see!!

And I want to gain B (three) kg weight!!

What system change do you want, Mr. Gokhale?

August 22, 2011

Among all the Anna Hazare news over the newspapers, one news from the City (Nagpur) caught up my attention today. Veteran actor Vikram Gokhale had been in the city yesterday for staging some of his play. He visited the ongoing protests by Anna Hazare supporters at the RBI Square. Donned with a Gandhi cap reading “I am Anna Hazare”, all the local newspapers have published his photo in their respective city editions. Marathi daily Sakal quotes him saying “The youth should not stop their movement until a system change.” The leading Hindi daily Dainik Bhaskar quotes him advising the government not to teach the people about democracy. He goes on to say “This movement is nonviolent because the youth respects the democracy, but I wonder what way the youth will turn if something happens to Anna during his fast.” I want to analyze both of these statements in light of a past incident related to the Mr. Gokhale.

Mr. Gokhale is a veteran actor of Marathi Cinema and stage. He has also worked in a few Bollywood films (Remember Aishwarya Roy’s musician father in Hum Dil De Chuke Sanam). He is a respected figure in his field; we expect the same respectful behavior from him in the other fields of life.

I must mention here a personal incident. Some five years ago, in February 2006, as I was a student of BAMS, we had a state level university youth festival at Jalgaon Khandesh. Medical students all over the state were participating in this annual event managed by Maharashtra University of Health Sciences. Mr. Vikram Gohkale, our actor in question, was one of the chief guests at the ceremony. During his speech, almost completely out of context, Mr. Gokhale advocated Vande Mataram to be the National Anthem and said “Our blood must boil up when we are asked to sing Jana Gana Mana as our National Anthem.” He was speaking from state-run stage, he was sharing the dais with the vice chancellor of the university, he was speaking in front of thousands of students all over the state, did he make any sense making such controversial, potentially nearing to treason, statement? No voice of protest came up, neither from the students nor from the dais. Everyone, including me, remained silent. As a student, we were among the audiences. We hoped someone from the dais would ask clarification to Mr. Gokhale, but no one spoke, and the issue ended there only.

Now coming to the sentences from the news papers, what system change Mr. Gokhale wants? We live in a multiparty, secular democracy and a welfare state working to ensure social justice among all sections of the society. Does Mr. Gokhale mean a change in this system? Does he mean a system that would favor Vande Mataram over Jana Gana Mana? The views that Mr. Gokhale expressed from the university dais are the stated views of the Sangha Pariwar. Wasn’t he using the state platform to condemn our national symbols? Wasn’t he using the opportunity to propagate the Sangha pariwar philosophy in from of a large number of malleable youth?

In the second statement, he wonders what turn, instead of a nonviolent movement, would the youth take if something happens to Anna; doesn’t it suggest violence?

As a student, I had no means to express myself back then, but I can certainly raise these questions now from my own platform. The mainstream media kept mum then; and now too I wonder if anyone from the biased media would ask these questions to Mr. Gokhale.