Yeah, I am a kind of difficult person to be with! I cannot smile. I cannot chatter on some nonsensical xyz subject for hours. I cannot make you smile and I cannot talk to you for hours unless we are discussing on some serious subject. I cannot be light. I have lived for years with a habit of being serious; I cannot bring a smile on my face however I try unless I am with you. This is what I am! Yes, I know this is not a good way to live life. If I am really such, I must change myself. I must learn to make myself happy. I must learn to make my surrounding happy, or at least try not to make it sad!
I know you will disapprove almost everything that I wrote above. If I say I am a kind of difficult person to be with, you would say “I had never been so comfortable with anyone.” If I say I cannot smile, you would say “I like it the most when I see a kid-like smile on your face.” If I say I cannot be light, you would remind me of some study circle or tum hi dekho na moment.
And I must agree each of you argument is true. I had never been such happy. I had never been so smiley. I had never been so complete. At this very moment when I am typing this, I am happy, really happy, from the core to crust. And this is not a momentary feeling; I am happy at heart. In fact, I do not need to give you such a long explanation, because you know, and you only know, how happy I am! Just a while ago, I tweeted jaata nahi ye noor hai – I meant it, because the feeling of this noor, of you being with me, never let me go sad for long.
Oh 🙂 I think I have given more than enough of explanation. And thanks you provided me some subject to write today; I was a kind of puzzled about what to write. So if you are reading this, just read it and let it go! If you can have momentary feelings, I can definitely have them.