Just had a very interesting talk with Gaurav. I was sitting a kind of upset, badly wanted to talk with some, and I wished if I could find Gaurav online. He rarely uses GTalk, so I was kind of uncertain if I can find him there. I tried Windows Live Messenger, but it didn’t work, so I came back to GTalk, and lo.. He was there.
This was my first chat with him per se (we had had a 2-liner brief chat earlier, but I had abruptly cut it off). I told him about me and he told about himself, then about our blogs, further plans, and so on…
The most interesting thing of it was a shootout question series by him:
Why do you blog?
To express myself. I can’t live without writing.
This is absolutely truth. Why do I blog? Because I want to write. I have a long habit of writing. It started with my writing diary about 13 years ago. Initially, it was a kind of routine for me, but in 2002 as I came here at Nagpur, life got too much tumultuous. At the same time, I started to get a lot of leisure time and privacy in hostel. Fading out of an old love, finding a new one, having breakups, going through its melancholy, getting into a couple of another relationships, again falling into a new one — this material was enough to make me write. I wrote, and I wrote a lot. I wrote diaries, poems, ghazals, blogs… Then everything stopped. I had a long break of about a couple of years. Ghalibana was an exception in between, but still writing the heart could not happen for long. So in the earlier part of this year when I found I cannot write diary anymore, I decided to start a new blog and thus started The Blog of Reflections. So, I write to express myself. Because I can’t live without writing.
Was medical a choice of your heart?
Because I didn’t know what else to do. I had grown up since childhood listening being a doctor is something great. Otherwise, I loved math.
Choosing medical field was an simple choice for me, because I never had any other options. Can you believe I didn’t know till 12th grade what engineers actually are? I only knew they either build buildings or computers!! No one ever told me that Pure Sciences can be a great career too. My parents were not that educated to advice me and I was an ugly duckling for my college professors. That being said, I enjoyed my work as a physician. I worked with surgeon for about 2 years, assisted a lot of surgeries on a daily basis, literally assisted in saving lives. But I was a BAMS (Ayurveda graduate), I knew I can only be an assistant at most, I could never perform the surgery. I had no intention to pursue my post-graduation in Ayurveda (even the 13,000 p.m. stipend could not allure me). I didn’t even try to appear for the PG entrance, I had already had enough in my 5-1/2 in graduation.
Which quality do you have that’s very special according to you?
I am a good man.
This was my answer without any hesitation, without a second thought. It is the only reason I am alive, because I know I am a good man. The day I lose this feeling, I will lose everything else.
So can you say you are unique in some way?
Yes I am, but I am not sure if I can explain it right now. I am unique in a lot many aspects, but still, I am a good man should be enough.
I know I am not one of the flock. I wish if I could tell how much I long to find someone like me, and I know, it is not an easy job. That’s the reason I hardly be friend with anyone. I never understand what to talk with people. In my 27 years, I could find only a few people who I can say have a part of me in them. (In fact, I am chatting with Gaurav only because I find something like myself in him). There are only a few people with whom I feel like myself. (Don’t frown up, you are in the list by default, take care to keep it free from viruses).
The conversation then turned to be a bit personal; I am not going to publish that part of it (I don’t want to make Gaurav feel awkward telling that he had a broad when I answered “Yes” to his “Did you have a girlfriend?”) Stil, it was a very interesting talk. Hope we can continue it some time later.
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